Friday, 26 September 2008
i have been blessed with the blessing of Aidilfitri 35 times, on the last count. this time around, aidilfitri will be here just several days after my 36th birthday, and several days after my wife's 33rd. we have lived a lively life so far. Allah is great. when we started our life together (that was 12 years ago), we looked at the future in anxiety (in capital A). i was a very junior teacher, with meagre salary, and during that time, i had just enrolled in University - with a halfpay salary.
but we survived.
my life was never a complete misery, nor was it a complete heaven. but we were contented, with our life, and with what we had to endure in those survival jungle.
looking back, i wouldn't want to have my life in any other way. this is my life, our life, and i am truly grateful with what Allah has blessed us with. Aidilfitri has always been a day of reflection for me, and this time is no exception.
Allah memberi rezeki kepadaku bukan dalam bentuk kekayaan harta dan wang ringgit. Juga Allah tidak memberiku anak-anak untuk dipeluk dan disayangi. tetapi Allah menganugerahkan aku yang kerdil ini dengan nikmat Islam, dan Kesedaran . Allah meredhakan aku bernafas. Allah memberikan aku pasangan yang istimewa. Allah memberikan aku nikmat kasih sayang dari ramai manusia - ibu bapaku, ibu mertuaku, adik beradikku, anak-anak saudaraku yang comel-conel belaka. Allah, aku tidak mampu menghitung nikmatMU.
Allah, sesungguhnya aku tidak layak untuk syurgaMU, tetapi aku juga tidak mampu untuk menanggung seksa nerakaMU. Maka ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku ya ALLAH. sesungguhnya Engkaulah Maha Pemberi Keampunan.
kepada rakan-rakan bloggers, maafkanlah segala kekhilafan dan kelemahanku, aku tidak dapat lari dari sifat mazmumah. kadang-kadang aku merasa Benar- sedangkan kebenaran itu hanya milik ALLAH semata-mata.
kepada Dr.Novandri yang banyak memberiku ruang menyatakan pendapat, terima kasih atas kesempatan mengenali. kepada sahabatku Don Balon, pohon halal segala makan minumku semasa kita bersama di UM, jemput ke Desa Coalfields raya ini. kepada rakan-rakan yang lain, Dzul,Man Helang dan lain-lain, i'm hoping to get to know you all better.
Friday, 19 September 2008
it's obvious! he's playing a highly complicated mind game. future political analyst might want to call him a Master Strategist. Motivational speakers would love to pronounce the success of their Law of Attraction, Power of Subconscious Mind, and The Secrets...
At the other side of the shilling, enemies will definitely create fresher and harsher expletives - specifically referred to Anwar, when one day the expletives find their entry to Collin Cobuilds or Oxford dictionaries. How else would you explain the commonness of "Liwat" nowadays? i tell you guys, i've been a teacher for 15 years, and never did i encounter students who very casually (and with deep understanding) mentioned the words "Sodomy" and "Liwat" until after that fateful 1998!!.
be it as it may, back to my nagging...
You see, Anwar is the master. He shapes malaysian political landscape - post 1998. Of course he came prepared. He never fails to attract attention since his student days. He is malaysia's James Dean of sort to the youth's eyes. He fulfils the ideals of youth who subscribe to anti-establishments. To young people of Malaysia, Anwar represents them. Anwar is still the angry young man. Even when he was in the government, young people still relate to him. I mean, compare him to let's say.... Shabery Cheeky, or Hamid Albar, or better compare him to Yang Amat Berhormat Ketua Pemuda UMNO Malaysia Dato' Seri Hishamudin Tun Hussien Onn!.
To the elders, Anwar is Malaysia's Jose Rizal. He is also Malaysia's Muhammad Abduh. He is Ghandi. He is also Sun Yat sen. Of course he is not actually of that very high stature yet, but at least, he seems to portray some of the qualities equated to the big names...
Now, do you still wonder why it is he who finally managed to bring PAS and DAP ( like bringing ultraman and the monster together) together? why Ku Li failed? Why Onn Jaafar failed? Need I still wonder why PAS seems to be infatuated with love to Anwar?
Lagi mau tanya Ka?
Tuesday, 16 September 2008
the much awaited sept 16th is here. for the uninitiated, it's Malaysia day. for Malaysian political animal, it's "the Day". it's the day ,awaited with short and sharp breath by the ruling coalition, in anticipation of the unknowns....it is also the day where one man's credibility is at stake.
my travel to putrajaya seems mysteriously mystery... cars seem to be less, the clouds seem heavy, heavier than they normally would, at this time of the year. the office block seems dull, duller than it normally is. people walk about in short quick pace, talking or more accurately whispering in a hush hush tone.
the atmosphere is somewhat different. business is not as usual. people talk ,and walk, and smile but they do them differently. the net is unusually slow, the traffic is heavy. winds come in all direction, words of mouth become the gospel truth.
no one single story is reliable, but no one single story is unreliable either.
will this be the day? will it be the change much awaited?
my eyes are closed,sinking into oblivion...
Friday, 12 September 2008
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
Jangan menangis anakku
Melayu sudah mati lima puluh tahun dahulu
terbujur di perbaringan waktu
hidup tanpa nyawa
meratap tanpa suara
Jangan menangis anakku
Jasad sudah kaku lima puluh tahun dahulu
berhentilah menangis di tubir nisan ini
kerana Melayu sudahpun mati
kerana Melayu sudah hilang
Tuah tak berani lagi menyusun pencak
keris tersarung tinggal tersisip reput dipinggang
dastar koyak diinjak dagang bangsat merempat
Hulurkanlah keranda itu
yang sudah mati lima puluh tahun dahulu
Thursday, 4 September 2008
pity Pak Lah. everybody blames him. but come to think of it, critically, does he really deserve to be blamed?
1. Tun blames him for the poor performance of BN in PRU12. : WHAT DID ALL HIS CABINET MINISTERS DO?
2. UMNO members blame him for the low-image they are suffering : WHAT DO THEY DO TO HELP STRENGTHEN UMNO'S IMAGE? WHY DO THEY POINT THEIR FINGER TO HIM, WHEN THEY THEMSELVES NEVER REALLY DO ANYTHING (other than securing government contracts)?
3. People blame him for the so-called slow economic performance : SO, WHERE GOES ALL HIS CADRES OF ECONOMIC ADVISORS? WHERE'S NOR YAKUB? WHERE ARE ALL HIS CABINET MEMBERS? WHY HIDE? WHY DON'T YOU DEFEND HIM? come on man! no one man can be really good in all things and subjects.... Pak Lah is quite "slow" in economics, i agree, but to blame him alone? i don't think so...
LET PAK LAH SUFFER THE BURDEN OF RAKYAT'S WRATH !! SO WE CAN CARRY ON WITH OUR GREED!! DIVERT RAKYAT ATTENTION TO HIM, SO NOBODY'LL SEE OUR HANDS IN THE JAR!
Tuesday, 2 September 2008
Sempena Ramadan yang mulia ini, izinkan saya berpesan kepada diri saya sendiri dan juga kepada saudara-saudari sekelian agar kita sama-sama mengambil kesempatan dari keberkatan bulan ini. marilah kita perbanyakkan ibadah, dan menghentikan permusuhan, terutama sekali permusuhan yang tidak membawa manfaat pada agama dan bangsa kita.
sekiranya sepanjang perkenalan kita di arena maya ini, wujud kata-kata yang mengguris dan menyakitkan hati , dengan ikhlasnya saya pohon kemaafan. sesungguhnya sebagai manusia, saya selalunya merasa megah dengan pendapat sendiri, dan selalu saja merasa yakin bahawa saya berada dalam kebenaran. namun, hakikat sebenarnya hanya ALLAH SWT yang maha mengetahui.
Salah atau Benar tidak sejelas Hitam atau Putih...